Thursday, September 25, 2014

A taste of a different life

New schedules and nerves; school and friends; work dust up; Marlowe losing her constant summer companion to Grade Two and Jason reaching outward again. So much change the best we we've found to accommodate it is to spend our free time cooking and loving our home life or.....running for the hills!

Which is what we did.  We rolled up a solo weekend in with a work trip I had.  Rented a wicked apartment on the sea side, went sea kayaking, cooked and ate our faces off.

Sometimes escapism is alright.

We enjoyed the sweet release of uninterruped sleep and conversation.

We spent the morning exploring the island in the bay in sea kayaks provided to us by our cottage hosts.

It was a spectacular morning. The weather, the company, the sense of adventure. We are in the business side of our relationship - there are so many activities and people and ways to distract us from taking care of our relationship that we had forgotten a little bit what it was like to go adventuring just the two of us.

No matter what though. these guys were not the seals we though they were out in the bay. Nice guys from the Ottawa Valley and Nova Scotia - they really gave J the sales job on the diving in the hood.

We went for a talking drive (read: long drive trapped in car to talk) over to see some Toronto friends who'd recently moved out to Shelbourne to live their dreams. It was a treat to see the dream take hold and be so successful.

One couple`s dreams enabled both partner`s dreams. Her love of homesteading, chickens and crafting and his of craft brewing. It is a beautiful thing to see a family incorporate everyone's hearts into their reality.

At the end of it, I stayed for another 5 days for work meetings - this is frankly, my cue to do all of the things I don't do back in Normal Life.

Eat, drink, dance and work to excess.

You're not the boss of me Sign!

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Three Years Ago Today

Dear Marlowe;

Today you are three; it's hard to believe that time is flying at this pace.

This means of course that 'You are a big girl' now.  I asked you if you could consider staying three forever and you insisted that you couldn't stop.

It is 'what you do'.  You do so much more now than even two weeks ago!

Wild with determination and will to do it makes you unstoppable. I can relate on so many levels that it takes my breath away.

In the last month though, you've been really trying to take a minute before hurling yourself into your feelings or frustration or off of a cliff. It is a wonder to watch you learning how to cope with the instinct to go wild.
I can feel you getting ready to stretch your wings and direct your attention away from me in search of a wider world and it foreshadows my last hatchling leaving babyhood behind.

You are a wonder and a force to behold. It is humbling to witness.

Happy Birthday Pork Chop.


Your Mama.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Failed Nuclear Family

We have a rule around here about September. We go nuclear.  That is to say; we re-focus our energy and attention to the home and to each other. This is always in response to the new schedule that Fall brings. Fenner starts a new grade; we have to shake off the summer's ferality and all of a sudden our home's cracks and dust and clutter starts to become apparent.

So we buckle down and prepare for the fall work ahead. It feels good to get back to's also no coincidence that the costs from any summer adventures also come to bear on our spending. So home is where we make our happiness. Being Canadian, the weather starts to cool down so I hanker for some bread and cooking.

We are feeling broke so we do things that make our dollars go further - we make more and buy local. Investing in each other and time together, reading, knitting, arguing and visiting. Our only goal is to get as much social, filial, productive bang for our buck.

This particular September is made even more intense because I paid tuition for the first time in more than 10 years. How can something I've wanted for almost 7 years be so incredibly nauseating and yet here we go, just beating the storm by minutes, only because we're running this game together.

Going nuclear as much as we's what saves us every fall. Hopefully, you'll see me hear a little more not because it's so original, the story of a working mom, goes to school and balances selling out day by day - but so I can track the memories as the days get filled up by all of our adventures.
Stay tuned.